Time. Something so simple can be so complex. Time is a gift, but it is also a thief. The best of times seems to go by so much faster than the worst of times. Time creates memories, but it also creates distance. Time does not heal all wounds. Some wounds are too deep and over time turn into scars. Scars that we bear for the rest of time. My 7 years with you were the best times of my life, and they flew by. And yet these 3 years after you seem to move so slowly. I wanted to freeze time so badly when we lost you. I didn’t want the world to move on or time to keep ticking. I remember our first New Years without you. The clock turned to midnight and just like that for the first time ever I had to live in a time, in a new year, that you weren’t going to be a part of. That was one of the hardest times for me. Dealing with the fact that I was entering a time where all I will have with you our memories. That was hard. Today would have been your 10th birthday, and yet it feels like it’s been a decade since I’ve held you. I couldn’t stop time and now I can’t turn time back to have you in my arms again. And yet, I am so thankful for the time I had with you. So thankful for all our memories we have together and so proud of this beautiful scar time left behind. Happy 11th birthday to my beautiful boy. Time is a thief and it keeps moving, but it can never take away my love for you. Your the first thing I think about every day and my last thought every night. Until it’s time for us to meet again, I will look for you in my dreams and will forever be thankful for all the beautiful time we had together. I love you my sweet baby boy.
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